Hi there, it’s been a while since I posted anything on here.
My family and I have been going through one hell of a rough patch lately; we have unexpectedly lost a my dear father.
That is the major reason why I couldn’t face my computer, as I knew if I wrote anything… I’d end up in tears!
Besides us having to learn to live without my father, I have been going through a struggle of my own. I have been in a “don’t give a ****” mood when it comes to food. I haven’t been caring about what I put in my body; trigger foods were welcomed with no hesitation. I’m talking about deep fried food, fast food, tomato based items, sodas and junk food. However, I didn’t give up on the fruits, veggies and the healthy meals during that time. It just became as if anything was “okay” for me to it. I have no idea if that makes sense!
This mood started before my dad passed away and I can’t figure out why!
You would think I’d go back to eating healthy after he passed… nope, It got worse. I was in a dark hole of lack of caring about what I ate; as long as it was some sort of food item that sustained me, I was good.
Don’t get me wrong, I knew what I was doing but just didn’t care. I knew the consequences will catch up with me fast and I was waiting for it.
I can’t remember a day that I didn’t have a weird bowl movement or cramp.
I slept with a heat pad every night, hoping to calm things down.
I think I hit rock bottom with this mood when I had to go the ER last sunday due to having bad bowel movements for 4 days along with vomiting and severe cramps. NONE of my medications were effective, hence the visit to the ER. I was so out of it that I don’t quite know if the Dr said I have a slight case of the stomach flu or just really really bad case of IBS. Either way, it was bad.. I couldn’t go into work, I could barely eat for days or keep anything down for that matter.
I have been slowly regaining my appetite and positive outlook on life. I am breaking the vicious “I don’t give a ****” cycle and getting back to my healthy self.
My advice to myself and anyone going through something similar: Listen to your body, stop ignoring it…you are what you eat!
Hope everyone is doing better than I am.
Live life to the fullest flavours,